S.H.I.T. happens

one lesson which i learnt the hard way is not to trust people that easily. the problem is that i know i am not supposed to trust them easily and each and every time, i make an exception to the rule saying no ways it cannot be this person who will be mean to me. here comes my foolishness in thinking that world is either black or white,neglecting the deepness of the shades of gray which suppresses my each and every move to rise to the top. The makers of the resident evil probably got inspired by the B school life. Each and every one trying to push the other to the source of human blood.Last week went in me cribbing that my life is so boring that i want something to happen in my life. nothing good happens. never. it is always an unwanted complication which occurs to give me some unwanted anxiety and disturbance.how many times should i try to put on my thinking, witch cap to out beat the other person, only to figure out that they have already reached the next stage by the time i had finished my thinking process.am i slow? i dont have an answer to that. Am i that good that i am not able to think craftily? i doubt that too. what am i.always caught between good and bad, emotional and practical feelings, emotive and stone faced, beautiful and ugly looking,"good person" and "bitch"...am i calculative or do i just analyze too much of the situations which leads me nowhere.neither do i use the analysis in achieving my dreams nor do i have the peace of mind acquired due to lack of excess mental,unproductive mental activity...am i insensitive to people's problems or am i just protecting myself against a let down by the other person..am i having too much of expectation from the other person or am i justified in being non committal to them....i dont have an answer to any of these.people advise me to go with the flow. the problem is in identifying which is the right flow..pessimistic view of the placements, rosy caricature of the jobs...it does not stop with the placements. everything in life is a fight...its not that i am against fighting..i have had my share of those.. it is just that i hate fighting in an uneven terrain where i dont know the cause of the battle...it is the same feeling which you get when your own sword turns against you and the pain sears through you..unable to find the spot of origin nor able to find the spot of termination... life sucks...

downs and... more downs

one thing which i learnt well in the recent past is that i hate being consoled with cliches like there is always a second time or life will get better over time... i have also decided in the future if at all someone feels bad about themselves, i would rather feed them practical inputs than boring them with these one liners.. everybody knows if something dreadful has happened that it is indeed dreadful. why do people still console as if nothing actually happened? would they buy this story if they had been at the receiving end?? i feel life is really testing my enduring capabilities.. one step which i keep forward is being rewarded with two steps backward.. how long will this go on till i stop walking?

heyya!!

exams have started and they r seriously drivin me crazy.. all i do nowadays is dusting the books and seeing the syllabus.. if i studied for half the amount of time which i spend in judging the massive syllabus, i wud have finished all five units... anna univ structure sucks big time!! and all the lecturers are such hypocrites that they ask us to read from foreign firangee authors and they actually teach from local authors.. my computer architecture maam even went to the extent of tellin us" amma, all this is not their in your hamachar so take down the notes" and those bloody flow charts were in namma charulatha publication... the very sight of k d prasad gives me undisturbed sleep for min. 5 hours... gawd!!! how will i ever manage??? hail charulatha publication and technical bakshi!!!

vendetta..

everytime i come across this particular word, it puts me on a retrospective path. it simply means that once you get duped and you hold the grudge forever or till the time you get on par with that person. well, i have read my share of mario puzo novels and i feel this whole concept gained publicity after the likes of godfather and other such movies based on novels. i have often let my imagination run wild when i read about the dons seeking revenge and the ever powerful corleone or the handsome michael.anybody who be enamoured wth the idea of having everybody in your control and the thugs, etc, etc!!!the fruits of revenge are indeed sweet. i would choose to disagree with all those philosophers who advice the commoners on forgiving and having a great heart. crap!!i would say that the greatest pleasure comes in seeing the person suffer. gone are the days when you just felt GOD would take care of everything and just hope that the person would come around and atone his sins. it just doesnt happen anymore. more than seeing the eprson suffer, i guess i am too influenced by mario puzo and i would hence like to derive the self satisfaction that i indeed carried out my revenge and i am powerful on my own.i know that some people might comprehend it as simply childish but isnt child the father of man???

the real IT world....

i am currently in wipro sholinganalur.. blogging this post from here..i have come here to undergo inplant training.. and guess what am doing.. sleeping and passing time.. big time vetti..eating in the cafeteria and sleeping in my bay.. the computer has proxy setting and is not allowin me to access any site..

arrogance...

some people call it arrogance and some choose to call it a mere statement out of pure jeolous feelings.. you can also attribute it to the bad feeling that the other person is all what you are not or what you can never be.. recently , a friend of mine just called me arrogant because i dint listen to her advices on certain issues... now is that arrogance?... i would rather state it as having the insight of knowing whats wrong and whats not by myself ... and sometimes, when people just talk behind the back about me, i just feel that they are ,in fact cribbing because i am able to do all those which they cant do or plainly, they dont have the guts to do...now, is it really bad knowing that you are arrogant?..i dont think so its bad knwoing that you are to some extent arrogant... you might even say that the above statement is present to indicate that i am arrogant... may be i am, most probably I AM....i am in fcat proud of the fact that i am arrogant... cheers to arrogant feelings...lol

its all the way pebbles and leaves.....

well... i guess today was the best sunday i have ever had in the past few years... for everybody , a perfect sunday would constitute a well deserved sleep and good food and perhaps, a movie... well, what did i do today?... we were asked to come to college to sweep and clean the college... a college whichc hasnt seen cleaning for 30 years finally got a face lift .. thanks to some commision which is due for arriving tomorrow...theys upplied us with broomsticks and rightfully ordered us to work meticulously and that we did under the watchfull eyes of my duty bound and rather pious principla( pun intended)...all the words which come out of her mouth are. well, those which i dare say , none of us would dream of using.....today was the first time, i got to see so many guys of my class pick up the shovel and dig vigorously....i guess my college is teaching us how to look after our household in the future and perhaps, driving nail in the coffin by telling us that we could consider sweeping a lucrative option if we dont end up with a job by the end of our course....
next time anybody asks you to choose a college or rather asks your opinion on any of the college..just dont give a gud opinion about my college and never cite the reason as its within the city... its just a central jail and i guess i would rather prefer the term" CONCENTRATION CAMP"... and we have a female hitler instead...i would end this by saying just tthis much......." FUCK THE INSTITUION"
PS- i guess i would like to mention my honorable if not despot of a hod.... i am running out of words to describe her.... she just doesnt qualify for the post of an office attender ...SHOOT THE HOD.....

valentine's day post effects

ya, you are right..the much hyped valentine's day is over finally and am extremely glad about it..i seriously look at this whole affair of giving presents and the candle light dinner with contempt...its gross stupidity and i guess everybody ends up with a hole in their purse....is it that the rest of the days they just forget to love each other or give each other presents???...i guess any gal would prefer her guy to give presents out of the blue which is truely genuine rather than being prompted by the world to give their sweethearts gifts ....the celebrations should'nt be restricted to a day and am not goin to justify how it is just a marketing gimmick..to each , his own..www.chaosbudha.blogspot.com check out the valentine's post to know how many people celebrate this day with pompous gestures..lol....on the whole, its just" much ado about nothing"