after a long hiatus........

hullooooooo.... i know its been quite a while since i blogged. you can blame it on the way the" anna university" functions or simply, my laziness... so you might have been wondering on what the angelic devil had been upto these four months?? well, i was just busy with my semester exams and loads of other academic stuff... i finally finished writing my resume and i suddenly realised that i havent done anything worthy of or something which is could be proud of in these 19 years of existence.. i dint know what i should write in the extra-curricular activities column nor did i know what are my negatives and positives. In the end i just ended up magnifying the smallest thing which i had done and succeeded in giving this image of an avid blogger..lol..for instance, today i had a mock interview session with tcs and seriously shook the ground under my feet.. suddenly i am overwhelmed with the feeling of insignificance and i am desperately searching for a long time goal which i could proudly tell my interviewers about and what not... you could probably blame the society for the state which i am currently in.. cut-throat competition, the necessity to sell yourself as a produc,trying to sound candid at the same time not being out-spoken ... the perspective differs from person to person.. i am not sure whether every third year student is facing the same kind of turmoil which i am currently facing... i feel lost in the gloomy darkness of the " big, bad world" out their which has already engulfed me.. i seem to be transcending through realms ruled by chaos and confusion..to add to all these, i am currently reading this book called" the monk who sold his ferrari" ... this is loosely based on how a guy finds his soul and happiness a la alchemist story.. i guess thats all for now...see ya hopefully soon...

age factor

when i was in the first grade, i used to look wistfully at the fifth grade students wondering when i will be in that grade.when i finally did land up in the fifth grade, my eyes began to look at the middle school students and so it continued till my eyes were set on the twelfth people... i wondered when will people call me"akka" and ask for my help in their subjects. i wondred when i would be old enough to vote of get my driving license. the worst part is that when i did get my driving license, i dint experience any of the jubiliation which i had thought i would go through in my early years of my existence.the curious fact was that when i was in fifth, i regarded the tweflth students as being very old and when i myself, came to that position, i was this ever growing kid of my mummy..and when i thought my wishes will finally cease, i started thinking how good and better it would be when i enroll myself in college. and yes, the same nivya-syndrome started in the first year of my college too.. i wanted to be in the third year.. now that i have recently had my 19th birthday, i suddenly realize how old i have actually become.. i now realise what my mum meant by" enjoy your school days, they wont come back to you..." i now yearn to go back to ym school days which were seriously heaven.. now as the years roll by, i suddenly dont want to grow up and become that responsible person that everyone is expected to become at some point of time or the other.i dont want to go to the fourth year for i fear what will happen to me when i pass out of college...now , when i look back at the younger ones, i feel they are feeling the same thing which i myself faced... they want to be in my position and i, in theirs... i look at the school going kids wishing that i could go back to those days of playing on the streets and coming back with the soiled clothes..when i wanted to earn and be independent in fifth standard, people said that it can wait for few more years . now the same people are advising me on taking up a job whereas i am expecting the same old reassurance that it can wait for a few more years. the actual thought of working doesnt scare me as much as the thought of getting the tag line"she is ready for marriage". i have seen many females succumb to this plot woven by the parents. first settle in a job and then the bridegroom comes in search of you. i have nothing against the insstitution of marriage . its just that i feel it would be too much of burden and responsibility placed on my tender shoulders and i dont want to end up one in the millions of girls who end up marrying just because that was next in the agenda. in that sense, i feel i dont think like i am 20. the mind is still caught up in its innocence and its refusal to believe that the world has, indeed changed and its orthodox ways is making me a rebel..

wedding hues!!!

today was pretty eventful.. no electricity in the college, wearing a helmet for the first time and then hitting a cyclist(belive me, i havent hit anybody when i WASNT wearing a helmet), and then, attending a christian wedding!!! it is for the first time that i witnessed a christian wedding... i completely fell in love with thier white gown and the bridesmaid(esp.best man..lol)... the entire custom of dancing captivated everyone present there.. pity i coudnt dance because i dint have a partner...the wedding cake was sooo huge and the whole fan fare was pretty exciting. the only sore spot was that the bridegroom was a hindu and he had converted himself... well, no comments about that!!

tagged:)

well, here is another round of tagging..
1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it?
the scar on my left elbow. it reminds me of how i applied the brakes of the scooty when travelling at a speed of 65kmph.seriously idiotic act of mine
2. What does your phone look like?
my phone looks like a well, phone.. i prefer nokia to any other brand for the simple reason that nothing happens to it how many ever times i drop it down.

3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?
two posters, one saying" dont straighten the mess, you will foul up the system" and anbother one saying" do not disturb, great mind at work( with denis cartoon sleeping happily)"

4. What is your current desktop picture?
my picture taken at ooty.

5. Do you believe in gay marriage?
to each, his own...

6. What do you want more than anything right now?
i want rest and a good holiday!!!

7. What time were you born?
morning september 13... perfect virgo... systematic, perfectionist,romantic to the core!!
8. Are your parents still together?
Yup

9. Last person who made you cry?
first and last person who always makes me cry is shah rukh khan. everytime i start watching any movie of his(esp. kal ho na ho), i just end up crying whenever he cries.. i know it sounds very uhhhh.. what to do....

10. What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
davidoff cool water.
11. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex?
i used to like blondes and blue eyed guys when i was young( courtesy:nick carter of the backstreet boys). now it has changed to black hair and slight brown eyes.

12. What are you listening to?
saroja!samaan nikalo!!!!!!!!!!
13. Do you get scared of the dark?
nope..i love the dark

14. Do you like pain killers?
nope.
15. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
hmmm... havent met THE guy and hence, not shy!!!

16. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
curd rice with avakai!!

17. Who was the last person you made mad?
my mum.. she always makes me mad!!!

18. Is anyone in love with you?
definitely yesh!!!!

back with a bang!!

its been long time since i posted...well, it was un avoidable break.. i guess hence forthw ill flood the site with posts..lol.. what ahve i been upto for the past 2 weeks?.. i would as usual say" nothing much".. i had been to trivandrum on an official tour.. dint get to see much of the place but i can assure you , the place rocks .. the backwaters, the innumerous coconut trees, the payam puri( a delicacy which has the banana fried, similar to the bhaji.one grievance which i had is that there are no saravana bhavans in trivandrum and i swear its seriously hard to get decent vegetarian food in this place. if you manage to get it, the rice would be the par boiled rice which according to me, doesnt at all taste good. overall the place is awesome with its pristine landscape . i was mesmerised by the sight of ernakulam, chenganacheri,palaghat and kolam. these places are absolutely too good.. that too if you are fond of greenery with solitude, these places should be your first try. now coming to the comical part of the story, i got to wear a dhoti!!!! the padmanabaswamy temple forbades anybody wearing trousers, so... well, i just tied the dhoti on top of my normal salwar kameez and believe me , it was funny.... see ya in a short while with a better post...

tagged!!!

this post is all about tagging and how i got tagged..... Here you go with 8 random facts/habits about me...... It's quite revealing I tell you. The rules of this game:
Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves
People who are tagged need to write posts in their own blog about their eight things and post these rules
At the end of your post, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names

• i love to talk non-stop and i guess i can go on and on talking about anything on this earth.
• i cant without food especially chat items and i swear by the bhel poori at gangotri's.. i practically live there...
• i am a true virgo. pretty systematic , highly critical and often rude, short tempered to the core. i take pride in calling myself a near perfectionist.
• i looove hill stations and i will anyday prefer them to any beach resort for the simple reason that i love the cold and chilly places especially the himalayas. i just love the streams and the snow capped peaks , the whole pristine atmosphere.i also love the trekking and other sports which these peaks have got to offer.
• i cant live without shopping. i know that i sound like a typical girl at this juncture but seriously, i love it!!! be it pondy bazaar road side shopping or burning a hole shopping in globus.. i jus love it.
• i am stubborn and i love it that way. if i want to do something, i will go to any extent for having fulfilling it. be it a mere whimsical thought of having a bhel poori to paying back on my enemy.
• i love my independence and i hate anything which curbs it. i like taking decisions by myself and ability to take care of myself without depending on anybody else.
• i hate hyppocrisy of any kind. i am pretty frank and i expect the same from others. i hate anybody who talk behind my back.

there goes the eight random facts about myself.i am just breaking the tag by not tagging more people for the simple reason that they have already posted about this..

vendetta..

everytime i come across this particular word, it puts me on a retrospective path. it simply means that once you get duped and you hold the grudge forever or till the time you get on par with that person. well, i have read my share of mario puzo novels and i feel this whole concept gained publicity after the likes of godfather and other such movies based on novels. i have often let my imagination run wild when i read about the dons seeking revenge and the ever powerful corleone or the handsome michael.anybody who be enamoured wth the idea of having everybody in your control and the thugs, etc, etc!!!the fruits of revenge are indeed sweet. i would choose to disagree with all those philosophers who advice the commoners on forgiving and having a great heart. crap!!i would say that the greatest pleasure comes in seeing the person suffer. gone are the days when you just felt GOD would take care of everything and just hope that the person would come around and atone his sins. it just doesnt happen anymore. more than seeing the eprson suffer, i guess i am too influenced by mario puzo and i would hence like to derive the self satisfaction that i indeed carried out my revenge and i am powerful on my own.i know that some people might comprehend it as simply childish but isnt child the father of man???