kanamapettai

last night, my friend and i decided that we need to get the required books for the current sem and so launched this trip( u will find out y it is called so) to the book bank for which we dint know the route... we were tossled here and there in the narrow lanes of saidapet and we were at the mercy of all those vendors on the road for the route... gawd, it was seriously hellish... in the run, we lost the helmet which i was using as a basket..fortunately or unfortunately, i was the pillion rider ... we took the zig zag path and in the process, i got to see some fabulous temples which i havent even heard of...sorry, i cant remember the name but it was written" siva siva " outside..we got the required books and i should say, i finally got to see the famous kanamapettai last night...it was kinda spooky.... well,this journey was plagued by the bike refusing to start at some places and we getting scolded by strangers for not using the indicator and i guess the best part ws that the bike absolute no brake .... this was alarming at certain times but we did manage to tredge our way through the maze of streets....

arrogance...

some people call it arrogance and some choose to call it a mere statement out of pure jeolous feelings.. you can also attribute it to the bad feeling that the other person is all what you are not or what you can never be.. recently , a friend of mine just called me arrogant because i dint listen to her advices on certain issues... now is that arrogance?... i would rather state it as having the insight of knowing whats wrong and whats not by myself ... and sometimes, when people just talk behind the back about me, i just feel that they are ,in fact cribbing because i am able to do all those which they cant do or plainly, they dont have the guts to do...now, is it really bad knowing that you are arrogant?..i dont think so its bad knwoing that you are to some extent arrogant... you might even say that the above statement is present to indicate that i am arrogant... may be i am, most probably I AM....i am in fcat proud of the fact that i am arrogant... cheers to arrogant feelings...lol

its all the way pebbles and leaves.....

well... i guess today was the best sunday i have ever had in the past few years... for everybody , a perfect sunday would constitute a well deserved sleep and good food and perhaps, a movie... well, what did i do today?... we were asked to come to college to sweep and clean the college... a college whichc hasnt seen cleaning for 30 years finally got a face lift .. thanks to some commision which is due for arriving tomorrow...theys upplied us with broomsticks and rightfully ordered us to work meticulously and that we did under the watchfull eyes of my duty bound and rather pious principla( pun intended)...all the words which come out of her mouth are. well, those which i dare say , none of us would dream of using.....today was the first time, i got to see so many guys of my class pick up the shovel and dig vigorously....i guess my college is teaching us how to look after our household in the future and perhaps, driving nail in the coffin by telling us that we could consider sweeping a lucrative option if we dont end up with a job by the end of our course....
next time anybody asks you to choose a college or rather asks your opinion on any of the college..just dont give a gud opinion about my college and never cite the reason as its within the city... its just a central jail and i guess i would rather prefer the term" CONCENTRATION CAMP"... and we have a female hitler instead...i would end this by saying just tthis much......." FUCK THE INSTITUION"
PS- i guess i would like to mention my honorable if not despot of a hod.... i am running out of words to describe her.... she just doesnt qualify for the post of an office attender ...SHOOT THE HOD.....

the beginning at every end....

every wave which dies down when it comes closer gives birth to another wave which makes itscrescendo felt sooner than expected... every full stop used in a sentence marks the beginning of a brand new sentence and
similarly everything which meets with an end paves way for the starting for yet another new stuff.the biggest problem that the mind has biggot is the coaxing of the heart that everything happens for the good.... there are so many instances in life which scream aloud their credo.....for instance, when a wave washes ashore some debris, it pulls back an equal amount of waste which had remained littered on the sands...every turn of incidents in one's life should be viewed as a lesson from which we ought to learn the vagaries of life... we should view all the failures as stepping stones of success....one just doesn't stop climbing the staircase just because he happened to slip in the very first step... everybody should have that attitude and the rest will be a cake walk..like the famous einstein's quote goes" i learnt 99 ways of not doing the experiment correctly"...i am not tryin to say that we should just resign to fate... its just that sometings are definitely not in our control and we should at some point of time or the other acknowledge the presence of an omnipotent who may or may not be responsible for the disastrous turn of events...its purely a positive attitude which everyone should try to cultivate or imbibe which is bound to help them in the walk of life which they choose...now , this is not a lecture on what is already known to many.... its just reaffirming what many people have felt for themselves ....rather than scorn at such articles, it would do good if you just analysed it and then proceed to give the usual disdainfull looks....i would like to mention the mentor who had actaully helped me drive some amount of positive attitude in my brain.... though he calls himself chaos, he is far from it...lol

RE WINDING THE TAPE...

have you ever pondered over what exactly have you acheived over the span of 20 years or whatever might be your age...i am not trying to prove the much proven fact that we atleast i havent achieved that much... my friends will sit and console me saying that i have indeed achieved a miniscule amount ... and if u constantly hear what my mum threatens me with, i bet you wont have the inner desire to strive for the best..am not saying that my mum is discouraging me..its just that she has made me see things in a new dimension and scale...the big question is:what will be the status quo if i dont study well????....well, you need not sit and think about it bcause my mum has already found an easy solution for that million dollar question....she finds me as a saleable ware which she is goin to market lucratively ...this is the case because ther are so many guys out there who dont mind if their wives have just rolled out of colelge and that makes it even more a difficult path for those gals who dont want to marry right after they finish college....frankly speaking, initially i was abashed..but later on, my mind got used to the concept and now i feel.. why not????...but there are umpteen number of conditions and so many if's and but's....but my perception of the whole thing is entirely difefrent from that of the society... i belive in equal rights and the pity is that half the guys think that marrying is gettin someone to do ur dirty dishes and make sure you get hot food wenever u come home.. and basically , a caretaker or in crude terms a baby sitter...now thats what drives me crazy... i am not the one who should be taken in taht manner..i absolutely abhor it..so now you can ask me what exactly i have been trying to convey through this post... i feel that i am as confused as ever and am more than confused now...adios

somewhere i belong...

in the recent past, i suddenly discovered the solitude which had been suppressed for a long time and had subsequently got buried deep within...i discovered peace when i least expected it...when u have time in your hands, all of a sudden your life comes to a halt and thats what happened in my case too...i began retrospecting which brought me nowhere near the truth for the truth is unknown even to me...this helped me concentrate on much more important stuff...

very long a road it is

the road is lined up with spruce trees on either side which makes me wonder in amazement about how great is nature..it creates the best of things yet doesn't take credit ...it also craetes enough problems for everybody to mourn about how bad it is... i take all these in my stride towards the unknown destination and my penchant for trouble hasn't yet deserted me for it knows that without the dash of that unpredictable devil, i would be forlorn... i turn back the clock and do a quick retrospection on the course of events which has taken a heavy toll in my life ...on one hand,my heart ponders over what has happened and it lingers over the unforgetable facts of life which has been forced upon me.. on the other, my mind tells me to come out of what has happened and tells me to concentrate on what more is to come in the near future...the heart aches for known reaons and also for the unknown ...people desert you when you need them the most and they turn up to complicate the stuff which is already complicated enough on its own...what i gathered out of everything is that never give up in life for you never know what is going to happen the next minute...may be you may win a jackpot or in the worser aspect, you might meet with an accident...whatever happens, just remember that u have just one life to live and live that to the max level...adios